Lost

Life has changed and its changing every seconds of the day...
Yesterday i called up one of my very old fran... ( You know i am now uncle)...
who thought this will be in this way... but life play like this.One likes it or not!!??
its way back in the year 1999 when i met this woman all full of life and beauty. All full of humour, life was so beautiful ( still it is). Only difference is we have grown up and with the pressure, demand and deadline we have got strange marks in our face and soul. Who thought that this would be our life after so many years of struggle. We never see far and thats the biggest drawback human being have. The lack of forsightness.
well somtime i tend to stray away in the wilderness. I guess its common to have. Do you people get the same feeling. Any ways lets continue with the story- It was one of the strangest meeting. We had a kinda likeness for each other. Although i know I aint one of those handsome guy next door adored by every aspiring lady. Yet we new we were made for each other (Only for Time Being). She was there looking through my eyes and i think she had power to read minds, as she was the first one to look inside my eyes and i opened the door to my soul. She knew i was not ugly as i looked in the first sight..
I had never had a very good relationship with opposite sex, its not that i am gay or interested in the same sex.. yet may be my eyes were demonic..I was very harsh on them, bitterly hated by them.. so it was obvious when i saw somebody liking my way of life.. and it caused me trauma,, may be the fear of getting infected by strange virus we called love.. But hey!!! You never know when it has attacked.. i was wounded but the resistance ( By the law of nature) kept me going untill it gave up and i stumbled upon this infectous disease.. My life had changed.. no matter how hard i tried to find a cure.. it increased and my whole had changed.. I started liking the sensation of my heart controlling my outer being.. The feeling of lostness and the feeling of thinking about somebody whole day and night.. and nevr got tired...(This i called the strength of "Bidhata". The supreme power,,,,...