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when you loose patience and you have turmoils of thoughts


last night i was very impatient and wanted some form of solace, probably the distance away from my wife and live in the hectic schedule of life has made me like this.
The other day my new manager said "Prem! take control of your life." Take things easily when it is a tough.I was amazed as we have never spoke much. But his words pinched me. May be my acts were showing him that i was impatient and wanted to get things done in my way. Then the last night my soul was in deep turmoil. I tried playing some games, it didnt help much. I thought may be it was due to sex drive. i tried watching few adult related sites.
I know you might be thinking that i am nuts as i speak about devine life, spiritulity, and emancipation from the worries of life and how can i talk about sex.
Well than let me tell you i am deeply inspired by Osho's teaching- "If you want to cross the river then you would need to swim across it."The idea is simple and perfect. If there is a urge in you and you try to curb it. it will curb you. you have to go through it.
As watching the porn sites gave me some pleasure and satisfaction, it was momentory.

i googled spirituality and famous quotes
i found Gandhi's quote -
"In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness" --Mahatma Gandhi
I read it again and again to find the inner meaning into what he wanted to say. Well lo!! i could find myself meditating with my eyes wide open. it brought peace within me. the peace of soul.
I could find the path for last night. i found out that i had to take my diary and start writing for my another blog which i have been thinking about from last couple of years. And the thoughts were clearer and i could find the words easily.